Equal Mother
Equal Mother
Motherhood
Stages of Motherhood
Motherhood for me has seen many different versions, being that I was so young when I first stepped into it. I had just became a teenager myself, when I had my first child, therefore I had to rely heavily on my mother’s support. Both my son and I lived with my mom up until I got my first place and I got married. Don’t get me wrong, I was still responsible for my child, I provided financially, making sure that I paid for most of the expenses. I also made sure I established and maintained childcare, even balancing getting both myself and my child to school daily. My child never looked at me as anything but their mother, but I definitely depended on my mother for guidance.
With my second term of motherhood, I felt a lot more prepared and was then parenting with a partner and not my parent. I learned how to be not only a provider but a nurturer. I feel that is the time when I fully stepped into motherhood and made it my lifestyle. I wanted to be involved in my children life even more at that point. It felt good to have a family.
The third birth took my mothering up to another level. I became a mother of three children and a caregiver. I take care of my disabled daughter full time, along with anything my others may need. Now I’m consumed with motherhood, I am involved in all aspects of their lives, and make sure that they know I will be there no matter what.
I gave birth to my fourth child, and she was delivered full term that being my biggest phobia after my last pregnancy.
Stay tuned for my progress and updates!
What’s New?
It's been an eventful last couple of years, having given birth to my fourth child and learning that I am a mother that has to get everything I need for my children. One of my main goals in life is to provide, protect and love my children with everything I have inside of me. Knowing that I am now a single mother of four children and I am the only one that they can rely on, I knew it was time to go even harder in life. I realized after giving birth that I am alone in this world and that my belief in God is the only thing that I have to depend on. During this time I began to build my relationship with God more, having always been rooted in my faith but never fully surrendering. I thank God for the grace and love he has given me in the midst of all of my troubles. Recently, I was able to restart my education goals having a new determination and taking care of my outstanding financial obligations for school. I am also grateful for every obstacle because it is a part of my character building and testimony. Everyday I push myself to be a better version of myself and to grow closer to God.
Giving That Extra Push
Being that all of my children are spaced out as far as age, I never experienced taking care of two dependent children at once until now. I have definitely learned that I have to give that extra push, having a toddler and disabled child that is fully dependent on me. Thankfully they are both sweet children and do not put up too much of a fight, making things a little easier. But having to bathe, change, feed and care for both of them is something I have learned to master over the last year, being it was my first time experiencing. However my baby girl is advancing quickly and I would say she is very independent for her age. I am thankful for the challenge though, it has made me feel they both get the timing and attention needed at the same time, sort of like taking care of a set of twins. But I say all of that to say, I have learned that it is necessary to give that extra push/effort. Honestly I am grateful for my oldest he has been great support and have stepped up as a big brother with the responsibility.